January 2012
7 posts
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Emotions
If only hate goes away with a blink of an eye. It hurts so much to hate.
This hate.
I think this hate is mutual. Sometimes I can’t help but to roll my eyes at every single thing you do. I’m sorry, but you’re truly this pathetic.
April 2011
2 posts
December 2010
1 post
September 2010
1 post
August 2010
3 posts
Good things are worth waiting for.
Haste not.
Needs/ wants.
Can you prioritize your needs and wants? I can. But its taking my life away. Being independent is shit. I didn’t ask for it. But I own too many too much.
July 2010
1 post
Lazing.
Yeah. I’m lazing around. It’s hard to find a job. Or put it in this way - hard to find a job of my interest field. I’m hating my interest at the moment. Damn. I just wish HRs have a lil more efficiency.
April 2010
1 post
March 2010
10 posts
Decide.
I’ve always been the odd one out in the family. It bothers me most of the time that i’m different though none of them said much. I have to convince myself that odd in other words is extraordinary, that it is ok to be odd, that i shouldn’t feel so inferior, that i am worth it, that i’ll make it someday.I always blame them for being so perfect, but why haven’t i...
Quarter-life crisis
I’m experiencing this now. Things don’t get better with mum and dad disagreeing on the trip.
Did you know?
i hate ppl who don’t rotate their pictures before posting it up. Stupid. Random.
Sick.
Title says it all. Pissed off with being sick. Can’t get a single thing done.
Oh. And i failed tp for the third time. I know. Failure.
Hopefully tmr’s biathalon would be ok. At least allow me to finish the race given my sick state.
If only you’ll be there to cheer me on, then everything would be perfect.
Nervous.
Am nervous about tomorrow’s interview. Crap. Haiyer.
I need you by my side. Where did you go?
February 2010
7 posts
Admission sucks.
Fuck uni admission. Why do they have to make it so complicated. I clearly submitted application for DEGREE yet am considered for DIP programme. FUCKED UP! If am not qualified for the degree programme, don’t send me any notification at all.
Sisters.
Fiona called earlier on. I miss her so much. Well, not only her, Alicia as well. I was telling her about me washing out photos of us and framing them up. She said that maybe i’m doing so to fill up the empty spaces, which i think it’s true. I never knew how much i love them and the other way round until recently.
Love you guys.
Daddy.
You know. I just thought of this randomly. My dad and i don’t really talk a lot. Something just hit me earlier on. 99% of the conversations we have is this: 你要吃什么？or 你饿吗？
I’m a bottomless pit to my dad and mum. I had to use that phrase. He’s forever feeding a pig. Goodness. Bad. Very bad.
Anw, i’m burnt like some lobster. Crap.
Am not feeling the cny festivity with both...
Blessed.
Sometimes, we take things that we can do for granted. So much so that we often forget how to treasure whatever we have.
While waiting for friend at some bus stop earlier on, a bunch of school students approached me. One of them showed me their phone with a mount faber written on the msg screen. Taking things for granted that everyone can hear me or anyone talking, i simply asked if their asking...
January 2010
12 posts
Dying.
I know. I shouldn’t be blogging at this moment.
I. Need. To. Complete. My. Freaking. Major. Project. Like. NOW.
But i had to. I need distraction to provoke myself so i can carry on. Am sleepy. Really sleepy. Crap. Cramp isn’t helping at all. Fffffffffuck.
So much stuff. Oh my god. Result of procrastination. Ahhhhh. Now, i simply can’t wait to give a big shout out saying:...
Hangover.
It felt like having this very bad hangover. Not wanting to do anything but sleep through it. Consequences were never considered when everyone’s enjoying. When everyone becomes sober, the harsh reality slaps you hard. So hard you never want to turn back again. This is the kind of feeling i got. For the 3rd time. I look back and wonder if you’ve become my obsession. Not a single...
Friends.
I really wish i’ve got the courage to tell you “friends we shall be”. But i know i won’t be able to behave the way friends should because i simply like you that much.
And the cycle begins. Accumulation of experience isn’t a bad thing after all. Yes. Bad, but it’s the truth.
Anyway, anyhow, life still goes on. When should i start work? Or should i just live pay...
Lies.
Nightmare is back again. If it was me in the past, i would say i’d insist on waiting till you’re ready. But i guess there’s no point persisting if neither of us are happy this way. I’m here to avoid again. All came and went so fast. Maybe, i’m just not good enough to remove the hurdle. Maybe, someday i would be good enough, just not now. I understand, because i was...
Hurdle.
If only the hurdle never existed.
Promise.
I didn’t keep my promise to blog that night. Damn. But, this is for you.
The way you make me feel.
It feels like the simple satisfaction when i’m eating sweets, chewy sweets. It feels like i’m getting attention from everyone in the world even if it’s only you and me. It feels like there’s no such thing as “too fast” where love or relationship is...
Neglect.
I know, I have neglected tumblr for the past month. Because i’ve been busy with stuff. Ok, full of excuse, BUT TRUE.
2009 is like so finally over! Cliche-ly, I believe and know that 2010 will be much better. It alr is much better. I shall say, I spent the first day of 2010 confessing. I was seriously contemplating whether to be determined and not say anything, but you know the...
December 2009
5 posts
History.
Why do i have a feeling that things will repeat itself? I have to stop playing around because things can never get that serious. I know it.
Birthday.
Yes. Sometimes, the bitter feeling still lingers. And i’m still avoiding. How did we end up in such a state? I really did treasure you all.
Why do i even bother when you all can’t be bothered?
Lunar.
Oh yes, it’s addictive. No kidding.
1 more month till end of attachment. Time seriously flies. And yes, i’m still enjoying my time there. Sometimes, i hope it never ends.
Nothing major happened recently, can say my life is getting boring. Except for the fact that i still club. Great company, Great place, why not? Fiona would understand this very much. Especially with the...
The red event.
The much anticipated event is over. Damn. I stayed in Starbucks for a year just for this event. But i think last year’s one was nicer. I resigned after the whole event. Completed my main aim.
And, people and myself are starting to ask what i want to do after i graduate. I have more or less decided. Have i?
I really want to do up a good post today. But my mind’s blocked. I shall try...
